Emo like it's high school all over again

Dude... wtf is going on? What in the world am I doing sitting on my couch feeling all depressed and listening to some old school Dashboard for? I look at my life, and I can't really complain. I've got a great girlfriend as was mentioned in the last post, and she has a great family. They've taken me in and they've taken care of me since I've moved down here to Louisiana. So why can I not shake this funk and fell into the pit of high school emo Dashboard?

I think it has a lot to do with my struggle to find a job. Well, I have a job, but not a career job. I like the people I work with, but I'm not by any means planning to make a career out of it. This is mainly going to be me just complaining but that's just how I am right now. I struggle to be truly happy for my friends that have graduated and are already working full time in the field they want to be in, while I'm stuck working in the mall. Don't get me wrong, I've made more money this year already than I did all of last year... but that doesn't make up the fact that I'm a college graduate that's still only getting paid by the hour and not a salary position. Maybe I'm just wondering when is it my turn? Why can't all these supposed connections finally come through and produce a position? I mean, I dunno... I guess I just needed to complain, and this is my forum. I'm really not always this depressed, but I just tend to write more when I am. And of course, it never makes it easy when my dad is always asking if there's any news as to my employment situation. I feel like a failure every time he asks... I never know what to say, besides... "um... well, no Dad, nothing yet... still." I know the job market is not going to come to me, but how freakin far do I have to travel until we find each other?

Wherever you are job, just now that I'm tracking you down, and I will own you! I will conquer this and I will achieve greatness... but I guess I'm just supposed to go through a huge pile of the smelliest, dirtiest, nastiest and all out disgusting pile of... well... you get the point. Life overall is good. Just frustrated at this point. *sigh*

BTW, new Butch Walker album is amazing, get it.