Dude... wtf is going on? What in the world am I doing sitting on my couch feeling all depressed and listening to some old school Dashboard for? I look at my life, and I can't really complain. I've got a great girlfriend as was mentioned in the last post, and she has a great family. They've taken me in and they've taken care of me since I've moved down here to Louisiana. So why can I not shake this funk and fell into the pit of high school emo Dashboard?
I think it has a lot to do with my struggle to find a job. Well, I have a job, but not a career job. I like the people I work with, but I'm not by any means planning to make a career out of it. This is mainly going to be me just complaining but that's just how I am right now. I struggle to be truly happy for my friends that have graduated and are already working full time in the field they want to be in, while I'm stuck working in the mall. Don't get me wrong, I've made more money this year already than I did all of last year... but that doesn't make up the fact that I'm a college graduate that's still only getting paid by the hour and not a salary position. Maybe I'm just wondering when is it my turn? Why can't all these supposed connections finally come through and produce a position? I mean, I dunno... I guess I just needed to complain, and this is my forum. I'm really not always this depressed, but I just tend to write more when I am. And of course, it never makes it easy when my dad is always asking if there's any news as to my employment situation. I feel like a failure every time he asks... I never know what to say, besides... "um... well, no Dad, nothing yet... still." I know the job market is not going to come to me, but how freakin far do I have to travel until we find each other?
Wherever you are job, just now that I'm tracking you down, and I will own you! I will conquer this and I will achieve greatness... but I guess I'm just supposed to go through a huge pile of the smelliest, dirtiest, nastiest and all out disgusting pile of... well... you get the point. Life overall is good. Just frustrated at this point. *sigh*
BTW, new Butch Walker album is amazing, get it.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
It's Been Awhile...
You know how occasionally you'll hear a song on the radio/ipod/ZUNE that just sparks a memory or some type of inspiration? Well, I guess you could say something like that happened to me. Butch Walker has a new album out, called "I Liked It Better When You Had No Heart", and the last song on the album is called "Be Good Until Then". The song is written from a father to a child and gives him some advice on how to go about his life. Which got me thinking how I was doing.
About 4 months ago I made the choice to move down to Louisiana to be closer to Sierra. It was a bit of a risk, because I was moving my entire life down here for her. Now granted, moving to Louisiana does open me up to many more federal positions for here in the Gulf region. But that was only a side bonus. The biggest bonus and the whole reason for moving down here was for her. And so far, I like to think that it has worked out fairly well. I mean, she and I are still happy together, we've discovered that we can put up with each other on a daily basis and still be happy. So far it has proven to be a very beneficial move.
When she and I first started dating I knew she was special. I knew she had come in to my life for a major reason, which reason I did not fully understand at that point. At first, I thought maybe it was just for a much smaller reason. But now, after being down here for 4 months, I've begun to discover that the reason was so much more than what I first thought. It becomes clearer and clearer everyday what the plan is for us. And it's more and more exciting every day. It seems that moving down to Louisiana has been one of the best decisions I've ever made. Things haven't been moving as smoothly as one could hope with the job search, but it seems that at this point, that's not as important anymore. It's easy to say that at this point in my life, she has been the best thing to happen to me since my mission to Cambodia.
Who's got two thumbs and is the luckiest guy in the world?!?! THIS GUY!
About 4 months ago I made the choice to move down to Louisiana to be closer to Sierra. It was a bit of a risk, because I was moving my entire life down here for her. Now granted, moving to Louisiana does open me up to many more federal positions for here in the Gulf region. But that was only a side bonus. The biggest bonus and the whole reason for moving down here was for her. And so far, I like to think that it has worked out fairly well. I mean, she and I are still happy together, we've discovered that we can put up with each other on a daily basis and still be happy. So far it has proven to be a very beneficial move.
When she and I first started dating I knew she was special. I knew she had come in to my life for a major reason, which reason I did not fully understand at that point. At first, I thought maybe it was just for a much smaller reason. But now, after being down here for 4 months, I've begun to discover that the reason was so much more than what I first thought. It becomes clearer and clearer everyday what the plan is for us. And it's more and more exciting every day. It seems that moving down to Louisiana has been one of the best decisions I've ever made. Things haven't been moving as smoothly as one could hope with the job search, but it seems that at this point, that's not as important anymore. It's easy to say that at this point in my life, she has been the best thing to happen to me since my mission to Cambodia.
Who's got two thumbs and is the luckiest guy in the world?!?! THIS GUY!
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